Christine, thanks so much for your comment and for taking a few to look at the posts and the site! I really appreciate the feedback. It's something I'm pretty passionate about and it's nice to know it resonates with others!
I know what you mean about worrying you should have found your thing by now... I have felt that way about myself for a long time. Recently I realized that there was no reason for that to stand in my way or be a problem. At least, if it becomes a problem for getting big gallery shows or whatever I'll worry about it when I get there. Right now I am realizing the only responsibility I have is to follow my interest and to keep making stuff and having fun. Who knows, I may find my thing in the process... Though I suspect I'll always be a bumblebee. And I am thinking now that there has to be some way to play that positively!
I think it's awesome that you got through 18 days on your sketch a day routine. I think it's most important that you gave it a shot.
I also have tended to get really tense when drawing or painting. Though I recently have rediscovered the fun in the process, and I think the key is not caring too much how it turns out. I realized one day that I was always shutting down my natural curiosities. I wanted to paint with bright colors, but "real" artists didn't do that... My color theory class in college would play through my head and say, "Oh, you have to make a plan, first." Then I decided who said I had to make a plan? And I looked at all the thoughts that had passed through my mind on the way to making a painting and I realized that I had shut down every single personal curiosity, dismissing it as stupid, wrong, poorly thought out, silly, too difficult, too easy... I just couldn't win, and I hadn't even begun! When I just decided to go with whatever I was interested in, no matter how crazy or potentially awful, I started to have a lot more fun. I don't know if it's the same for others, but I'd be curious to know what you think might cut you off from enjoying yourself, too. I've been stewing on another blog post on this very subject and am interested in other people's stories.
I hope you do try to do another challenge, no matter how long you go with it! Maybe you should make yours 18 days because you know you can go that long already, and decide if you want to extend it if you are still having fun when you're done.