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LarrySeiler
01-26-2005, 02:26 PM
As many here know...I've been seeking to be sensitive to the process/act of painting for myself and how it may mirror or metaphor the spiritual side of being a painter.

I was thinking this week about that sense spiritually where we feel God calling us deeper into a walk and into a knowing of him. A pressing in or as we sometimes refer to it..."Deep calling unto deep"...

9x12 oil on Professional series Wallis Paper, done this week-
http://www.wetcanvas.com/Community/images/25-Jan-2005/532-wallistest_thapesh.jpg

I was musing over this in one of our occasional conversations where my wife likes to point out how there would be many conveniences and things to enjoy if we moved and lived in the Green Bay area again. Usually...like this past weekend, that comes after we take something in. We took in a musical at the university theater..."Les Miserables" and the university men's basketball game against Illinois the following night at a very nice impressive new arena called the Resch Center.

Having fun...my wife pointed out how we could do more that kind of thing, attempting to appeal to me in a way that I'd agree.

Of course...teaching two hours north with my retirement time into the system and such, we both know leaving is not really in consideration at this time, but as the arts get cut across the country in schools, and states budget art out of curriculum mandates such that districts can drop it...well, one never knows if one might be looking for a new job the following year. *shrug...

Yet...having already lived 26 years in Green Bay taking EVERY weekend to escape north to experience the national forests, lakes and so forth...I always figured one was better off living in such an environment calling it home, and thus less weekends would necessarily be used to travel to larger regional towns to do one's shopping.

My wife...basically is a home body...and whether she stayed in the confines basically of a house here in the northwoods, or in a house in Green Bay (population about a quarter of a million), her life would not change much as far as interacting just outside the home. Perhaps less driving time to the mall or favorite stores in a larger city.

On the other hand...I would be accutely aware of all that I have come to know and have become intimately fond of as concerns the outdoors and moods of nature, thus what would be sacrificed and lost. Gone the isolation one can find themselves in a pristine environment. Gone the many rivers, rapids, the sounds and smells. The coolness of a cedar swamps bottoms and its smells. Gone the sightings and interactions with bears, many deer, wild turkeys. Gone the familiar recognition of horizons filled with various tree types...the shores of lakes and waters lapping up and caressing the rocks.

As I thought about this...I considered the longing that would grow in the heart for what has been lost. I could imagine the potential resentment of the manufactured distractions that would all vy to replace what was lost, and compete for attention.

What many come to treasure in those particulars of a busy hustle city enviroment, would be a sense of sadness, or of loss to myself. Of course those whose passions lie in the city and the familiar there would experience the opposite moving to a sparsely populated forested area I'm sure.

As I was thinking this over...I was thinking how one living and engaging in an environment qualifies one more to speak of it. Yet, those of us as artists understand that a unique familiarity comes of a lifetime spent observing and interacting with a particular genre and medium.

There is a step beyond recreational occasion here in the northwoods where the artist by near daily routine engages the investigative observe mode of time spent before the subject with medium in hand. Nature revealing more of itself to that individual whom is constantly seaking, becoming more intimate.

I was thinking of those that have a mental assent, more like an opinion that perhaps there is a God. They might even rarely show up at a church door for things like Easter, Christmas whatever. Is that a relationship with God? Well, for such folks they might think so...and all that in their thinking is possible to know of God. They are perhaps like my wife metaphorically where their world exists inside the confines of a house. My wife might tell another she lives in the northwoods, but as confining herself to the house interiors she would only best qualify to speak of the house environment, NOT with authority of the "northwoods"...not truly.

Wouldn't matter where that house was located, the walls inside and space therein is their world of intimacy. Having perhaps an opinion about the outside world, but spending so little time there can say nothing more authoritatively/experientially than perhaps what they experience running from the house to the car, and the car on route to a store.

Then those that are busy engaging activities, doings and such outside the home, perhaps recreationally...and have developed a love for what the region offers. Perhaps this may be something like a person active in their church or religious life. God reveals more of himself and draws more to himself. He has greater opportunity in that this group outside the house are seeking more, to reveal more of Himself.

Then I was thinking how the person observing and creatively involved or engaged near daily with their preferred environment has pressed just a bit further still such that the object of their devotion finds optimum opportunity to reveal even more. A pressing in...

We could say then that a person living in a pristine forested natural environment knows more about such an environment and the moods nature provides than say the person that lives their life in the city. Knows more than the person that stays indoors.

We could say that a person that seeks a greater intimacy such as to creatively express and respond might yet understand and experience even more. A pressing in...

Thus...as I seek to understand and engage more of my environment, and I have done so for nearly 30 years, I see the advantages as an artist...but metaphorically it speaks to me that more can be anticipated pressing into and hanging out with God. Again, painting showing me something about the faith life and vice versa....

I have had folks wanting to learn more about painting water contact me for advice, and I discover in talking with them they spend very little time around water at all. Part of my answer involves the obvious, which is to begin to take time in their life to pursue opportunities to recreate and observe around water.

Contemplating and musing over all these things, I came to feel I have much yet to gain pressing deeper into my subject environment, and into my relationship with God.

Larry

DLGardner
01-27-2005, 11:21 AM
Wonderful thoughts Larry. You've touched on some valuable spiritual truths.

I know when I was living in our other house my heart longed so much for some taste of open space. There is a bitter sweetness to that longing. On this earth it seems we never really get to those greener pastures...not until we obtain them spiritually by being truly content and thankful with what we have and where we are at. My first reaction to what you said about your wife's longing to be closer into the city was that she probably wouldn't enjoy it as much. Have you ever noticed that you don't visit with a relative until they move away? My son was living in Seattle for a few years. We hardly ever saw him. Our time was spent in our daily lives. Now that he's moved to California, there was a point when we were seeing him more, simply because we made an attempt to. Because it then became important to take the time to go visit him.
I think the passage, where your treasure is there also is your heart, is significant to this. Its a relational thing. Relation with our family, relation with the gifts we've been given, and relation with our Creator. There is a balance and it has to be prioritized. I see that you indeed are thankful with your surroundings but it cannot be your treasure and I know you know this. God Himself must be. Yes he made this beautiful earth and all the wildlife. It is his garden that he has given us to love and care for. But if he ever called you out of it he would want to know that you are willing because it is the giver that we seek, not the gift. I like to spend time with him asking him to detach me from those things that I might idolize above him, so that he wouldn't have to take them from me-although life itself will be taken from us all-in order to get back with him. Its hard. For me its my grandchildren. I love everyone of them so very much. And I love my children as well. They have their own destinies and their own stories to work out with Him. But if they were ever taken from here I don't know how I would handle it.

Life is so short. So delicate.

He wants us to love. To love Him, to love our families, to love our friends and to love our enemies. He wants us to appreciate and care for the things he's given us. You care for nature when you take time to go and paint Larry. You are doing a special service because you are saying to all of us who don't stop our daily patterns, see here how lovely. See here how special this is. Breathe the air-each breath is God-given for us and it in itself is a miracle. Stop and smell the roses so to speak. It is a gift that he has given you to share with us all. I know you know that too. We can learn so much from each other.

Thanks.
Dianne

LarrySeiler
01-29-2005, 11:48 AM
I do believe you are right Dianne....

we lived in Green Bay for 26 years, and didn't see some of our family nearly as much as now. Though...I did use most weekends to make the escape north as often as was possible. Then we were younger believers too and had a greater sense of our group of Christian friends and getting together.

Getting older, I think you value family much more.

All of life has been a many chaptered book for me....God has taken me out of one thing, then another. That's just how things have been for me.

The six years I was in Eau Claire, Wisconsin I was busily involved in ministry, city life...more musically involved, less artistically finding opportunity, though I kept creating and had an agent. I was busy. Those six years did bring me out of living the country life two hours north of there, did bring me out of a growing in popularity Christian band as their frontman. Change has been the constant for me.

With that in mind, I've not come to see any job with a sense of permanence. Good thing too, because with things going as they are in the arts and education, who knows....I could be without a job anytime.

Nope...God's always kept pretty much a very short leash on me.

thanks for responding Dianne....sorry I didn't answer sooner. I've been under the weather the past few days fightn' a flu/cold bug here.

take care

Larry

CareyG
01-29-2005, 03:51 PM
Larry...Dianne...

Thanks ever so much for sharing so much of yourselves here. Though this isn't exactly a hopping forum, your thoughts, your works, are much appreciated. Both of you always give me something positive to think about! (Though, Larry, you make me feel guilty--*no* body is more of a homebody than I am!! :o ;) )

It's refreshing to know that I always have some strong, good influences to look to whenever I, myself, am feeling low. We can all be angels in our appointed spheres of life, I think, and that is what you two are here.

Larry--hope you get feeling better!

~!Carey